Over the past several months a lot has happened and a lot has changed. Often this change excites me and drives me forward. Just as often it terrifies and paralyzes me to the point that I don’t want to do anything for fear of the unknown. My struggle is that I’m in-between what I’ve always known and what I long for.
My fear is rooted in the distance that lies between my comfort and my desire. I don’t want to sit still, and yet I am scared of moving forward. So my progress is slow.
I’m no longer a kid and not yet an adult. I’m not sheltered, but I’m also not fully on my own. My view of the world, of people, my beliefs and my take on life are all shifting. Some days are full of color and productivity, while others lack motivation and purpose.
For now I’m telling myself the way I feel is normal: this is a time of transition, uncertainty, learning and self discovery. And the more I think about it, the more I think that there are a lot of us hanging out in this stage of life; full of wanderlust, full of ideas and dreams, but plagued with the fear of leaving what is comfortable.
I think a huge step forward to where we want to be is realizing that it’s okay to be in-between.